Well, after a few more visits with Dr G and feeling that yucky, trapped, and uncomfortable feeling, I knew it was time to switch providers. I was so upset after my last meeting with him and got in the car and just prayed. As soon as I said, "Ok Heavenly Father, I am going to switch to someone else." Then I felt the peace come in. For weeks now I've been searching for the right fit for me with a provider who I trust and who believes in me and I hope I've found them.
I'll be making a long drive to the hospital which is nerve wracking because of how short my labors are, but I still feel the sense of calm that everything will be ok.
It helps that I've been done this road before and I know how bad things can turn out if you stay with a provider you do not trust. Troy is so devoted to making sure we are with the right Dr.'s. He would move mountains to make sure we don't end up with someone we don't feel safe with. Seeing him protect me through the pregnancy strengthens my trust that he will protect me during labor as well, if I can't advocate for myself.
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