I keep thinking about blogging and never find the time. But there is just so many random things going on that I'd like to write down, but none of them seem big enough to make an entire blog about....so let's just try jotting down some random thoughts, shall we?
So I am 35 weeks now. Considering that average delivery gestation for twins is 36 weeks I kind of had a moment when I realized that theoretically I could have these babies at any time. Strange. I don't really feel ready to have two babies right now. It has gone by SO fast. On the other hand, I am getting so big and uncomfortable that I am starting to think about what a relief it'll be to not be pregnant anymore.
Speaking of uncomfortable...Wow, I've never had aches and pains like this before! LOL Honestly, I can't complain. I am so blessed. But if I was going to talk about the hard parts I'd have to admit that the joint pain isn't fun. My hands and feet are really swollen and apparently some of the swelling is moving into my sonovial fluid, particularly in my hands. My fingers on my left hand are refusing to work. It started with one finger being stiff in the morning and now I can't bend them and have very little grip at all through my whole hand. Weird. But again, all things considered if that is my worst complaint I still consider myself lucky.
Oh the comments have started! I have never gotten people commenting before on my size. I don't enjoy it. People say the dumbest things. "Your husband will need a wheelbarrow to carry you around in soon!" "You look like you are going to explode." "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down!" "You look like you are due yesterday!" "You look miserable." Hmmmm thanks people. I had a lady at walmart that really made a great comment though it wasn't about my size. She asked how many kids I had and when I answered she said, "Oh honey, after these two you just NEED to get your tubes tied." Can you say, 'none of your business' Mrs. Inappropriate. I am tired of people talking about my body. I realize that it is different than it normally is, but I really wish that people would just be happy and celebrate with me without feeling entitled to talk about details of my physique.
I guess if I am big (43 lbs +) that it means babies are big and happy. They were 4 1/2 lbs at their last growth check. That was 3 weeks ago and so I am guessing they'll be 5 1/2 now....11 lbs of baby in my tummy. Wow.
Sleeping is hard. I've had to start sleeping sitting up. My pelvix can't take it laying down. Poor Troy can't really sleep with me anymore because I make a 'throne' out of the bed with so many pillows. I've totally taken over.
The Dr's and I are doing ok. They keep pushing cervical exams and I keep saying no. They aren't happy with me. But I don't care. I may let them do an exam later if I feel like it, but I do not, do not, do not want them around my cervix right now. There just isn't any good reason for it and there are lots of bad things that could happen. On the scale of pros and cons....my answer is decidedly NO. But holding my ground is stressful.
I got the list of On-Call Schedules for the Dr's today. It doesn't change a lot but at least I'll know who is on call when and if I want to try and get labor going on my own then I'll know when to try and when not to. Honestly though, I don't really care a lot right now. They all seem so similar except for Buchele and he would either be 100% bad for me or 100% good. I think I'd like to stay away from him and not find out. He is the pushiest of the bunch by far. Dr Fasolak was nice, but he wasn't the dream Dr I was hoping he'd be. I still think he'd be good though. He was still supportive of delivering in the room and not the O.R.
My SIL comes in 4 days. Things are going so fast. I can't believe I am here at the end. It'll probably start going slow now that I've said that. I just have focussed so much on getting them here that I can't imagine actually having them! At the rate I am going with this blog, by the next time I do make an entry it'll be about their birth!
